The air is thick and cold with menace at work, and it concerns dear John and his gal. Nothing has been said on the subject, but it's fairly obvious something is going on with them.
I would be lying if I said there isn't a part of me that is 'energised' by the notion that collaboration John/SpottyApple has expired. But the thing that'll probably see me going to hell are all the thoughts I've been having, since the idea crossed my mind. I know it's not right to wish someones relationship were over, it's not right or advisable to get involved in such matters with messy hearts but you know the struggle with my feelings for John has been long documented, and a source of much anguish.
Which is why it's OFF THE CHART how stupid I am being right now. Secretly wishing I am in view of a second chance with John; wondering if he's thinking about me. It's massively stupid, and moreover, it's dangerous.
The thing I have to slap into myself is that this is all imaginings and assumptions. For all I know John couldn't give a crap about me. Why, why am I being so stupid?
Sharpen up StrangeBird - this is not smart.
SB xx
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