Be careful what you wish for...

I am an idiot. of. mammoth. proportions.

This is going to be a short post, because I don't need to roll around in the thoughts of this shitty mess for any longer.

Yes, John and SpottyApple have broken up. No, I don't know why. Yes, I am a dick for reverting to my old 'I love John' pattern. No, I can't be sure - but my Nonna senses tell me that boy is up to no good, and is already seeing someone on the sly. I could be wrong, and I hope that I am - but there is a sense I cannot shake.

That poor girl is so crushed. Had I imagined my wishful thinking could look like this, I would have never entertained those thoughts, and for so long. Getting involved is the last thing I want to do - but I hate seeing people in such agony. I don't even know how to handle a situation like this. Ride out the storm I guess and see where it take me.

03/08/10 - death of john boy crush

Be happy. Be grateful.

SB xx