to accept, or not to accept

I'm somewhat undecided about Facebook. I like that it allows me to have some contact with people from the past and that it gives me a 'fly on the wall' look at people in my present. But I'm not the sort to whore myself out, in order to have 100's of friends, just for the sake of it. I rarely update my status and if anything I'm a quiet little Facebook ninja - sneaking around unnoticed, keeping an eye on things.

I received a friend request today, from a guy I went to school with, for around 10 years - we essentially grew up together. Normally I wouldn't really hesitate to accept, but this guy, he's a little different. In my first year at high school, there was a minor/major 'incident' (the categorisation of this event depends upon the StrangeBird you converse with - the teenage one, or the adult) involving me. On the day it happened, I received sympathy - for the following unnumbered amount of days, weeks, months - I was teased, and the bouts of teasing were usually initiated by Mr let's be friends. I think it's almost fair to say this guy single-handedly crushed my self confidence in high school, having a domino effect for years.

But, I have grown up enough I think, to say I have left my ill feelings behind. Still, it's interesting his friend request should make me pause. I'll probably accept, but maybe I'll wait a couple of days?! I find it's always risky, friend requesting someone; what if they don't like me? what if they don't respond? do they remember me? what if they think I'm lame? etc. etc.... so maybe it won't hurt him just to leave it a while. See, even now I'm playing those Facebook games! That's why I hate Facebook sometimes. It's opened up another cruelty avenue for the bullies and bitches of the world to explore and exploit.

I am enjoying the start to my week away from work. Even though, being under my Mothers feet is always a little 'dangerous'.

More good news is that I've finally finished the unit work for my part time course. In a 'counting my chickens before they hatch' move - this has lifted a weight from my shoulders, but it's also removed a diversion from my life. Now it forces me to spend time figuring out other things; like my job, my direction. Oh dear.

SB xx