Charm Lost

Amongst my confessions of last night I forgot to mention a pivotal moment that happened that day, at work.

I heard that John wasn't feeling well. In a completely friendly, concerned manner, when I had an opportunity, I said "are you not feeling well John?".... and as quick as the snap of a whip he fired back "I'm sure I'll be fine THANKS StrangeBird". In short, to say that I didn't appreciate the tone, would be putting it mildly. But, hey at least I know where I stand right? And only 12 months of feelings wasted on him. I don't know why he said what he said, and in the manner he said it - but I didn't really appreciate it. So, delusions aside - in the reality where I revolt him, I still don't think I deserved that sort of response.

Whatever, right?

Perhaps the golden boy has finally lost his shine. Probably not a bad thing - I needed someone to come along and snatch those rose coloured glasses from me, and smash them to the floor. Reality is what I need. Real. True. Honest - I need them all.

Stay true.

SB xx