I had a rough start to my Monday - had somewhat of a large run-in with the boss lady bitch 15 minutes into arriving. And Good Monday Morning to you too! My recent pay got stuffed up and I've been trying to sort it out. Boy, did I get more than I bargained for.
I'm not going to go into specifics, because, they are, well, boring and insignificant. But the way that stupid woman spoke to me; it was one of the few occasions I've left a room feeling very small and stupid. What kind of a manager wants to leave that impression on her staff? With the benefit of hindsight, I realise aside from the anger, I actually feel kind of sorry for the woman - to be so arrogant, to be so distrustful and aggressive for no reason... it's a sad life.
So, I broke down into tears several times today - because people kept asking me if I was "ok" with that fucking look and tone! Such a dangerous, dangerous question. So, I feel like a bit of a dick for getting so worked up and letting her get to me. And of course, every person at work today would just happen to arrive and catch me at my weakest, red eyed and weary. Fuck it. Wouldn't you know it that the person I kinda really wanted to see me upset, didn't; or removed himself. Smart move. He didn't talk to me at all today. Should I read anything into it? Probably not. Am I going to? Probably.
Anyway - I'm determined not to cry tomorrow (unless truly called for). I'm going to arm myself with everything I can and hope that that's enough (at least until I make it to the safety of the staff toilet... or my car).
Don't let the man (or woman) get you down.
SB xx
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