Low rider

Today was a bit of a low day for me, with a few bright sparkly moments thrown into the mix. Honestly I don't know what to write about, because it's all going to be very depressing I am sure.

Ex-crush boy, or 'John' as he's also been known - fuck, he confuses me. I can't read him, I can't explain the way he behaves - he's up and down and all over the place. We happened to walk to our cars together this afternoon - and most of it was silence, aside from the things I was saying/asking at irregular intervals. Maybe I was completely nuts ever thinking he felt anything for me. What the fuck? Why the hell can't people have tails like dogs? If they're happy, they like you, they like what you're doing - their tail is wagging. If they are snarling and their tail is down - they don't like you, so back off and leave them alone. It could be that simple. Just imagine.

Speaking of dogs, (oohhh can you tell I'm totally growling right now?) Little Miss Bad Apple stole my thunder today - turning her nose up at something I had shown her, and then proceeding to later show 'John' boy and acting all cute and cool about it. Ohhhh how I wish the universe would give her the bite in the arse she so clearly deserves.

I'm committed to giving my feelings for 'John' the flick - I'm going to do it. It'd be nice to have some help, in the form of a distraction, a highly attractive and kind distraction of the male variety.

Even though I was feeling low - the small surprise that was delivered this afternoon made me forget for a moment how shit I was feeling about myself; and for that I am thankful.

Over and out,

SB xx