Discoveries

I watched "The Notebook" for the first time tonight. I thought that I might regret my decision to watch it - I wasn't sure I was in the mood for the particular type of reality that romantic movies portray, or for the harsh reminder they usually deliver; that I am indeed ALL ALONE, but I actually didn't mind the movie. The worst bit was the whole dementia thing - the ultimate reminder that life is not fair.

Some things I have realised about myself recently:
1) I do not share the worlds love of Carole Kings 'Tapestry'... possibly not any form of love for any portion of Carole King at all.
2) Easter egg chocolate isn't as awesome as I used to think it was.
3) I like my men, a little chunky - fit chunky. When he's holding me, I want to feel safe and secure - and preferably that feeling should extend to his well-defined biceps, triceps and deltoids!
4) I have a new found appreciation, nay - love, for Ryan Gosling.
5) I could never commit to one coloured crayon to define 'me' - I simply change my mind far too often and I like way too many colours.

Speaking of well defined males, Benchpress me NOW Boy has been dearly missed. Being the public holiday today, I headed to the gym (along with every other non-working, Easter-guilt ridden adult in this town!) and saw him very briefly, way beyond in the mirrors. I'm still no closer to finding out if he possesses eyebrows, or exchanging words with him - perhaps both of these things will occur instantaneously, someday soon. I wonder though, is it the thrill of the innocent chase that attracts me? And if we somehow moved beyond this - would he just frighten me, or not be anything like I imagined? We shall see in time I suppose.

My 'Nonna vibes' have shifted into a new gear recently. I have this impending feeling, like I am on the cusp of something maybe wonderful. God, I really, really hope so. In all seriousness, I could use it - whatever it may be.

The end of the Easter break spells work for me - back to the grind tomorrow and honestly, not something I am looking forward to. The work crush stuff is still raw and hard to deal with.

That is all,
SB xx